i am twenty one
still trying to figure it all out,
i'm not worrying about anything.
just living life for the story.


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the boy and his machine - coming clean

sweet melodies

I got you some flowers today Grandma. Even though I know you can’t see them, I hope you can smell them. I love you.

I’ve never been so scared to see you. I’ve never only been able to bring myself to sit on the end of your bed so I could leave quicker then I could if I were any further up it. I’ve never in my life been speechless. I’ve never in my life had to run to a different room to be alone, to break down. I’ve never in my life stopped myself on the way back, procrastinating from breaking down again. I’ve never in my life had to choose my words so carefully. I’ve never in my life felt such desperation for someone else to find peace. I’ve never in my life prayed for anyone or anything to help me. I’ve never in my life felt so helpless. I’ve never in my life cried while smiling to try and fake that things aren’t that bad. I’ve never in my life had a harder time leaving a room. I’ve never in my life broken down on my mums shoulder. I’ve never in my life wanted anything to change as much as I do now.

We all need a reason to believe

I need this now more than ever

Polaris

You say that love goes anywhere / In your darkest time, it’s just enough to know it’s there / When you go, I’ll let you be / But you’re killing everything in me.

I’m going to listen to this on repeat for the rest of this car trip because it’s the only thing that’s keeping me going right now.

Melbourne has swagger

Melbourne has swagger

Lately

I really want to go to a resort, but when it’s horribly rainy.

I now have 3G working on my iPhone again, expect stupid little observations by myself to be posted while being an unhealthy mix of jaded/bitter daily

We’re so dark by night, I am lost / directions getting faded / remember what you’re taught / she’s so bright, i’ll use her as light / she’s so much more than decoration